Slowly but surely this railway track is taken over by nature.. great reminder of the impermanence of things we tend to see as permanent. If only we would be aware of all the time and effort it costs us to maintain our human world, we would be much more at ease to let things be and to let things go..
A little late since it’s already been posted for the monochrome madness, but here’s my entry for this week. The metro line running through the streets of The Hague
When I first met you I was still young.
You played along with my childhood games as we both shared the fun.
Unaware of the challenges of life I gave in to you without a doubt.
The fullness of life was so overwhelming I did not have to choose.
Later when doubt had entered the arena, you slowly disappeared to the background
Life became complicated with rules, relationships, expectations, punishment and reward.
The simpleness was replaced by intricate thought mechanisms which locked me into place.
Each day my life became more and more an experience of dull and boring rationality.
Playfulness was thrown out of the window in order to make sure I would fit in with everybody else.
But the more I fit in, the less free I felt.
Trapped by tempting promises and nightmares of hope and fear, the web of illusion closed in on me.
The one thing I had lost I had no idea I was missing.
Only when I found you back I knew I had been wandering in a cold and barren desert forever trying to clench my thirst.
The walls build around the inner temple squeezed the life out of me.
I tried to forget, suppressing everything I did not want to hear – I did not want to know.
Cause forgetfulness was better than to be reminded of not having you near.
Oh trust, life saviour, love giver.
On your shoulders I long to build my life.
Better than the sweetest dream, you wake me to a reality which is profound in its evidentness.
You are the atoms which hold the universe together.
Universaly revered because you are so humble.
I can now see myself again when I trust.
Naked with arms wide open, laying myself to rest in the heart of the world.
To trust is to know.
The wise among us know how to trust.
Trust. Let go. Fly.
My dear friend Pooh has left the earthly plane today. He had become very skinny and almost didn’t eat and drink any longer. 2 years ago we were in a similar situation, but back then i had the feeling that his life was not over yet. This time it felt different. It felt that he was ready to leave. So when i came home from the vet yesterday, i thought about what he said. He told me it was better for him to go to sleep. I could not decide immediately but after a few hours i realized that he was right and that i was ok with Pooh having to go.
So this afternoon the vet came and gave Pooh the injections which caused his death. Pooh was calm and died within no time. I’ve been doing a lot of Buddhist practice the last few days and playing a lot of Vajrasattva mantras for him. Pooh was to me a true Bodhisattva, a big hearted lovely creature who taught me patience, being calm and how to rest when turmoil is trying to take over the mind. I am thankful of the many years we have shared together and i wish him a safe journey to the other side.
OM MANI PADME HUNG
Amazing sight close to sunset at the business district of The Hague city
Beautiful sunrise yesterday morning