To allow myself to open up
To finally show what is hidden
To express what really moves me
How come it is so scary?
Yet the prospect of having to live
With all the pain locked inside
Emotional blockades ruining me
Can only lead to depression
So the urgency is very clear
I have to allow myself to open up
Fear of rejection and failure
Will surely be my guide for some time
Yet many have walked this path before
Teaching that in being vulnerable
Seeing the others are no other than we
We can share our most precious gifts
From this moment onwards
I let the free heart speak
With its shaky unstable voice
Stepping into an unknown world
Cause the world needs me to be
Vulnerable opening all senses
To the suffering and pain
Of the world in which we live
Instead of looking away again
I feel that this time i can stay
Let life run through my veins
As the heart cries out its song of hurt
I´m always amazed by all the beautiful butterflies. So delicately build and yet so agile in flight. They´re in our stomach for a reason. Tingling, joyful, exciting, almost too much too bear. And yet also very gentle, colorful and peaceful. They call to me in a way i can´t describe.
The most amazing part of the butterfly is its capability to transform. Starting as a small caterpillar, they morph into pupa before the final metamorphosis is completed. I often feel the same. One day someone said to me i was not yet showing who i really was and he compared me to a butterfly in pupa stage. Funny enough i sometimes feel like that. Knowing that it’s me who prevents the final transformation. Luckily every night i sleep under a blanket filled with butterflies.. and i’m working on transforming myself. I’ve come to realize it’s all about letting go. Letting go of my expectations, of thoughts, feelings and ideas about who i should or should not be.
In this way the butterfly becomes a powerful reminder to wake up to what’s actually here. Dealing with everything as it is, is so useful. At this moment there is no need to improve anything. Once the moment is here, it is all here. Nothing is left out. So i can rest and just enjoy whatever arises. If i make the transition or not is not even the point, cause everything i need is already here. I just need to recognize. Clearing my thoughts, creating space by being mindful and meditating, accepting.. all are part of the ongoing process of self(less) inquiry.
Searching for the truth has always led me to the same conclusion, whatever angle i used to tackle it. See the ego for what it really is. For me it’s the cocoon. It has its purpose and is very useful in my every day life, but it is not who i really am. The first time i recognized i was identifying myself as the cocoon, it was wild. I could feel the space which lay beyond. But also there was fear and anxiety. What would happen, once i let go of this cocoon, of this protection i had been carrying for so many years?
I’m still learning to let go of the cocoon. Every now and then i get the change to see through the holes which are now there and see the wild open spaciousness which lies ahead. The experiences have shown me that this spaciousness is my true home. Pure from the beginning, simple and full of love, wisdom and understanding. Which gives me the breathing space i need to deal with the cocoon which is still here. No longer it is necessary to fight it. As the caterpillar´s instinct tells it to create the cocoon, so i now know from deep down inside that everything is ok. I know it´s safe to let go. With the cracks appearing in the cocoon, i can taste more and more of the freedom which lies ahead of me. And with that i´ve learned that death too is another transformation.
Am i ready to let go?
As you take your first few steps
Know mother´s always there
Right behind you helping you out
She guides you along the way
Be brave my little one
Let go of fears and doubts
In this sacred dance of life
Go beyond all suffering
Be strong my little child
Just enjoy the ride
Trust and follow your own heart
Then nothing’s left behind
We were all young one day
Learning from mistakes
So if you fall to the ground
We help you to stand up
There will be pain and tears
And joy and happiness
So whatever you become
Don´t take life too serious
Listen to your own heart
It´s the wisest thing to do
All you need to know is there
Just follow it right through
Trust and just let it all go
The loving heart will flow
Trust and follow your own heart
There’s nothing else to do
The heart, she waits for you
Are you coming soon?
The heart, she calls for you
Can you hear her too?
© PNCO 2017
Touched by the immensity of you. Even though i can hear the traffic in the distance, in here there is only you.
You whisper so softly in my ears. Your sweet melodies are composed of the finest tunes.
Blackbirds chatter as a Robin sets the stage for an impressive solo. The symphony is intriguing.
You just leave me speechless time after time. Just being here with you is enough.
In here everything can be. Everything i wanted to say has lost its importance.
Insects dance in the late sunlight, while the water calmly follows the stream.
In your green arms i can finally rest. Ever so gently, the night settles in.
hello ladies and gentlemen,
it’s quite incredible to see so many people coming to this blog again and again. Could not have imagined that 4 years ago when i started blogging 🙂
But i also remember that there is this other hobby of mine, which i have not given too much attention lately: writing
As somebody said me a few days ago: just start with it, otherwise it won’t happen. And i know he’s right. So i like to give a bit of an outline of this new project for you guys but also for myself.
Long have i felt that words and images go perfectly together. Whether it’s a poem or a few lines of text, it really can create a connection with what meets the eye. So i want to engage in exactly this. It will be challenging for me, cause i know that i only write when i am truly inspired. But I’m sure that once i’ve started, everything will work out just fine.
I haven’t decided yet whether it will be a weekly or a daily thing, but i’m just going to start anyway 🙂
Please feel free to leave any comment, thoughts, critics, feedback. And please enjoy 🙂
ps. Day 1 is coming up!