Grasping, craving, mindlessly diverting myself
Looking for those famed fifteen minutes
Attaching myself to whatever comes to mind
In my thoughts i flirt with every beautiful girl
Behind the mask of shyness desire lures
As she looks to fulfill her animal lust
She always manages to betray my trust
Trying to impress all who come close to her
While she forsakes everything i hold dear
Once i give in to her i always regret
Seeing the futility of fighting my desire
Choosing wisdom over her ignorance
I give up my resistance with a smile
Letting go of the false need to impress
The mind rests even with all its mess
I become aware of desire once more
As she comes to rest in my heart
She whispers that
Her greatest desire
Is to remain forever desireless
Your poem is very personal and moving.
Thank you Mitza, and yes you are right about it being very personal. Nice to hear its moving! Letting go is never easy but imo always worth it 🙂